Samantha Murray is positive about the future after achieving a second top-10 Olympic Games finish in Rio.
While disappointed not to add to her silver medal in London, finishing ninth, the 2014 World champion takes a lot of plusses from her performance in four of the five Modern Pentathlon disciplines.
The West Bradford athlete was aiming to add to her podium finish at London 2012, and become the first female to medal twice at the Olympics in the sport.
However, the opening event, the fencing ranking round, made life difficult, leaving her joint 28th, before climbing to 14th after the swim – where she was fourth fastest – and the fencing bonus round.
After the ride, she slipped to 18th, but went on to finish ninth after the combined run-shoot.
And though Tokyo 2020 is a long way away yet, she is certainly not planning to retire any time soon.
The 26-year-old said: “I can’t watch the event back yet, and I am very disappointed – if I let myself, I could be really upset and be negative.
“I think people were hoping I would win a medal to save our sport financially, for another four years, but I didn’t, and I can either let that get to me, and feel guilty, I came home empty-handed – I’ve been down the depression road before, but I’ve had two top-10 finishes at the Olympic Games, I held my own, I enjoyed it, and I feel I have unfinished business.
“I’m still young enough, and I have to be positive about what I have and I’m able to give. That’s how I’m choosing to look at it.”
She added: “It gives you a bit of peace of mind to think that there are five events, and one of them was weak, but the rest were strong enough to bring me from almost last to top 10 at the Olympic Games.
“For every athlete there is the ‘if only’. My former teammate Mhairi Spence, she got a quote from the Rudyard Kipling “If” poem, about meeting fire with fire.
“Athletes are always like that, that good moment can spur you on for another season, whereas a bad moment or a bad patch can crush you mentally. I picked myself up, and I enjoyed it.
“I still enjoy it, I still love what I do, and when you look at Kim Collins in the 100 metres, Serena Williams, people ask ‘why are they still doing it?’
“If you have been bitten by that bug, once you’ve got it, it’s very hard to stop.
“So, to cross the line top 10, I was very pleased in the end.”
There is no rest for Samantha, as she travels to Moscow on October 1st, to compete in the Kremlin Cup.